I must stop being so hard on myself! I set myself targets relating to my writing, but don’t always allocate enough time for them to be achieved. When I don’t reach my personal deadlines, I tend to get extremely annoyed with myself. I have finally realised that getting annoyed with myself is so counter productive because I then waste time on being annoyed instead of completing my targets. I know how long it takes to write a book and I knew that I would have to put in a lot of work to market my first novel, but I didn’t realise how much. I have recently felt that trying to market my first novel whilst trying to complete my second novel, is an impossible task and I have even contemplated giving up. Then I remember that I am not a quitter!
I have taken a long look in the mirror and asked myself, ‘Why do I write?’ I write because I enjoy it and it enables me to enter a creative world. With this in mind, writing should never be a cause of stress in my life. I have a great need to write something daily, it’s my calling. Recently I have not written as much as I would have liked because I spend so much time marketing my first novel. I appreciate that I have had to learn, and still am learning, everything about self publishing, but I really didn’t realise how difficult it would be. I am sure that the more I learn the easier this journey will become. In my last blog I said that I was aiming to complete my second novel, Survival At Any Cost, by the end of October, so that it could go to my beta readers in November. I feel that this target may now not be achievable since my son James is coming to visit me from Norway on Monday. Naturally, I want to spend as much time with him as possible. Obviously writing will be done whilst he is here, but probably not enough to complete ‘Survival At Any Cost’.
I am currently planning a book trailer for ‘A Few Bad Boys’ and am hoping that James will be able to help me complete it because he is brilliant at things like that. He will no doubt tidy up my computer for me and hopefully get me a little more organised. Over the years he has realised that I am not very good with computers. He was amazed when I set up my own Facebook account, without help, some years ago.
‘Survival At Any Cost’ is coming on really well. I have re-written the beginning of the book completely and am a lot happier with it. My main concern at the moment is if I should kill someone off or not. I won’t be able to tell you what I decide to do since I wouldn’t want to spoil the book for you.
I am through with putting unnecessary pressure on myself! I will continue to write daily and if that eats into the time I have allocated for marketing, I will have to accept it. A number of people have suggested that I get an agent but finding one will take up even more of my writing time. If any agents happen to read this blog, please feel free to give me a nudge.
Until next time – keep chasing your dreams!